Emotions....

talk about my life as a young mother hoping to do the best for her children in spite of the life difficulies.As a Dentist I want to share you my occupational ticklers...

My Photo
Name:
Location: mosul, Iraq

I am a 37 years old mom ,I am a mother of 3 children. I am a Dentist. I try to make every thing perfect. The life I have, the difficulties I face make me anxious.. I like to have a social life; I cannot resist my feeling of being lonely, but I don’t have good social life, & I am lonely.

Friday, September 14, 2007

More about me ,my family and my people....

I am a mother of three children ,Sunshine Is shining my life since 15 years .Miriam is my life Joy since 9 years, yoyo came to warm my days three year ago…
Sunshine Is a brilliant girl make me proud of how we raised her ,she has great interests in reading ,writing ,looking for information about every thing in many aspects, she care about others and has good account in helping people desperately needed help, she allocates money for poor people and help sick people to find hospitals that offer free medical care,she spend hours for that, & she is doing great in school….
Miriam has a great personality, she is different than sunshine, but has her own charisma, she like sport, art, music, dancing ,she is willful, and very emotional ,and like to share in group work and share in house work she is organized and pleasant person to spend time with…
Yoyo,my little boy ,he is very smart, loving boy, I very much enjoyed my mothering with him he is very gentle and sweat.
About me I am a dentist as you know, I love where I work lately ,and started to enjoy my career ..I like to have social life and make friends, I like music and playing on my musical keyboard abolish my sad moments, I like country songs, and the eighties songs in general.
I enjoy cooking ,reading , growing plants, writing some thoughts and memories in a special copybook hoping my kids will read it in case one day I'm gone, became interested in reading about some previous famous persons ,I am organized in nature, I like decoration and handmade work ,specially macramé ,I like to make large designs like curtains,lampshades,partitions,and many other designs…
but still the most important thing to me ,and most interesting and enjoyable interest is my maternity, and taking care of my children, there Is nothing in this world can be more important than them , taking care of them and teaching them some skills like handmade work and art work,. they are my priority, I don't have privy dental clinic because I want to spend time with my kids and enjoy their company and childhood …
I suffer from depression and anxiety ,but I am better now with the help of my parents' support and the medications I take, I live in deep pain because I live away from Baghdad and left behind me my parents alone ,I feel lonely living without them and without my only sister who left Iraq…
I love my country more than I my self knew before the invasion ,I want my people to live in peace again they deserve that, Iraqis are very intimate people, love social life , very familial, specially in feasts, family members gathers together and spend wonderful times, now we are scattered in different countries

I never imagined myself away from my parents for a year now…we miss our life style..
The media made us terrorists that we may kill each other ,that our castes separates us ,and that Iraqis kill mercilessly, they turned us from being innocent victims into murderers and from people have ancient civilizations to illiterates…………..
عذرا بغداد خدعناك .... قلنا سنثور لعيناك قلنا سندمر من يجرأ أن يمس هواك .... قلنا لن نقبل أن يحرق غصن من نخيل بصراك عذرا بغداد ياوجعي للمرة الألف خذلناك .... بعنا من قبل فلسطين واليوم بصمتنا بعناك

Mama

15 Comments:

Anonymous steen said...

Hello mom of Sunshine,
I read your letter and I feel the warmth of your heart. I hope I am a good father to my (3) children.
I wish I could give you some kind words to help you, but, as always, I don't know what to say! I like cooking, too.

14 September, 2007  
Blogger Samuel Goh Kim Eng said...

Please add (& share with others) my blog

http://motivationinmotion.blogspot.com

to your reading pleasure
which I hope you'll treasure
without the world's pressure
and unnecessary, unwanted censure!

Happy Parenting To Your 3 Lovely Kids!

Sam Goh Sat. 15th Sept. 2007

14 September, 2007  
Blogger Beth said...

Mama/Emotions-

I enjoyed reading your blog. I am a 39 year old mom in who lives in Roanoke, Virginia-USA. I have two sons and am a teacher. I too suffer depression and anxiety. I feel very guilty as an American for your pain. I do not have a blog but might start one soon. I was reading an article about your daughter and felt compelled to write you. I understand being in a crowded room and still feeling lonely. Please e-mail me at bethclemmer@yahoo.com to share stories. Take care of you!!!

14 September, 2007  
Anonymous Robin said...

BELOVED, gaze in thine own heart,
The holy tree is growing there;
From joy the holy branches start,
And all the trembling flowers they bear.
The changing colours of its fruit
Have dowered the stars with merry light;
The surety of its hidden root
Has planted quiet in the night;
The shaking of its leafy head
Has given the waves their melody,
And made my lips and music wed,
Murmuring a wizard song for thee.
There the Loves a circle go,
The flaming circle of our days,
Gyring, spiring to and fro
In those great ignorant leafy ways;
Remembering all that shaken hair
And how the wingèd sandals dart,
Thine eyes grow full of tender care:
Beloved, gaze in thine own heart.

Gaze no more in the bitter glass
The demons, with their subtle guile,
Lift up before us when they pass,
Or only gaze a little while;
For there a fatal image grows
That the stormy night receives,
Roots half hidden under snows,
Broken boughs and blackened leaves.
For all things turn to barrenness
In the dim glass the demons hold,
The glass of outer weariness,
Made when God slept in times of old.
There, through the broken branches, go
The ravens of unresting thought;
Flying, crying, to and fro,
Cruel claw and hungry throat,
Or else they stand and sniff the wind,
And shake their ragged wings; alas!
Thy tender eyes grow all unkind:
Gaze no more in the bitter glass.
BELOVED, gaze in thine own heart,
The holy tree is growing there;
From joy the holy branches start,
And all the trembling flowers they bear.
The changing colours of its fruit
Have dowered the stars with merry light;
The surety of its hidden root
Has planted quiet in the night;
The shaking of its leafy head
Has given the waves their melody,
And made my lips and music wed,
Murmuring a wizard song for thee.
There the Loves a circle go,
The flaming circle of our days,
Gyring, spiring to and fro
In those great ignorant leafy ways;
Remembering all that shaken hair
And how the wingèd sandals dart,
Thine eyes grow full of tender care:
Beloved, gaze in thine own heart.

15 September, 2007  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

"Through persistence, self-knowledge, prayer, commitment, optimism, a resolute trust in God and the building of your own personal moral strength, you can enjoy the blessings of a deeper faith and face the difficulties of life with courage and confidence."

"Become a possibilitarian. No matter how dark things seem to be or actually are, raise your sights and see possibilities - always see them, for they're always there." -

"Every problem has in it the seeds of its own solution. If you don’t have any problems, you don’t get any seeds." -

"Nothing of great value in this life comes easily. The things of highest value sometimes come hard. The gold that has the greatest value lies deepest in the earth, as do the diamonds." - Norman Vincent Peale
Dieu vous garde

16 September, 2007  
Anonymous Robin Mac said...

Your words continue to weigh heavily on me... then last night, someone made reference to this:


Psalm 91

1 Those who live in the shelter of the Most High
will find rest in the shadow of the Almighty.
2 This I declare about the Lord:
He alone is my refuge, my place of safety;
he is my God, and I trust him.
3 For he will rescue you from every trap
and protect you from deadly disease.
4 He will cover you with his feathers.
He will shelter you with his wings.
His faithful promises are your armor and protection.
5 Do not be afraid of the terrors of the night,
nor the arrow that flies in the day.
6 Do not dread the disease that stalks in darkness,
nor the disaster that strikes at midday.
7 Though a thousand fall at your side,
though ten thousand are dying around you,
these evils will not touch you.
8 Just open your eyes,
and see how the wicked are punished.

9 If you make the Lord your refuge,
if you make the Most High your shelter,
10 no evil will conquer you;
no plague will come near your home.
11 For he will order his angels
to protect you wherever you go.
12 They will hold you up with their hands
so you won’t even hurt your foot on a stone.
13 You will trample upon lions and cobras;
you will crush fierce lions and serpents under your feet!

14 The Lord says, “I will rescue those who love me.
I will protect those who trust in my name.
15 When they call on me, I will answer;
I will be with them in trouble.
I will rescue and honor them.
16 I will reward them with a long life
and give them my salvation.”


I'll bet this is even more beautiful in Arabic... since I do not know Arabic, I will let you be the judge:

ﺍﻟﻤﺰﺍﻣﻴﺮ 91

1 الْمُحْتَمِي بِقُدْسِ أَقْدَاسِ الْعَلِيِّ، فِي ظِلِّ الْقَدِيرِ يَبِيتُ،

2 أَقُولُ لِلرَّبِّ: أَنْتَ مَلْجَإِي وَحِصْنِي، إِلَهِي الَّذِي بِهِ وَثِقْتُ

3 لأَنَّهُ يُنْقِذُكَ حَقّاً مِنْ فَخِّ الصَّيَّادِ وَمِنَ الْوَبَاءِ الْمُهْلِكِ.

4 بِرِيشِهِ النَّاعِمِ يُظَلِّلُكَ، وَتَحْتَ أَجْنِحَتِهِ تَحْتَمِي، فَتَكُونُ لَكَ وُعُودُهُ الأَمِينَةُ تُرْساً وَمِتْرَاساً،

5 فَلاَ تَخَافُ مِنْ هَوْلِ اللَّيْلِ وَلاَ مِنْ سَهْمٍ يَطِيرُ فِي النَّهَارِ.

6 وَلاَ مِنْ وَبَاءٍ يَسْرِي فِي الظَّلاَمِ، وَلاَ مِنْ هَلاَكٍ يُفْسِدُ فِي الظَّهِيرَةِ.

7 يَتَسَاقَطُ عَنْ جَانِبِكَ أَلْفُ إِنْسَانٍ، وَعَنْ يَمِينِكَ عَشَرَةُ آلاَفٍ، وَأَنْتَ لاَ يَمَسُّكَ سُوءٌ.

8 إِنَّمَا تُشَاهِدُ بِعَيْنَيْكَ مُعَاقَبَةَ الأَشْرَارِ.

9 لأَنَّكَ قُلْتَ: الرَّبُّ مَلْجَإِي، وَاتَّخَذْتَ الْعَلِيَّ مَلاَذاً،

10 فَلَنْ يُصِيبَكَ شَرٌّ وَلَنْ تَقْتَرِبَ بَلِيَّةٌ مِنْ مَسْكِنِكَ

11 فَإِنَّهُ يُوْصِي مَلاَئِكَتَهُ بِكَ لِكَيْ يَحْفَظُوكَ فِي جَمِيعِ طُرُقِكَ.

12 عَلَى أَيْدِيهِمْ يَحْمِلُونَكَ لِئَلاَّ تَصْدِمَ بِحَجَرٍ قَدَمَكَ.

13 تَطَأُ عَلَى الأَسَدِ وَالأَفْعَى، تَدُوسُ الشِّبْلَ وَالثُّعْبَانَ.

14 قَالَ الرَّبُّ: أُنَجِّيهِ لأَنَّهُ تَعَلَّقَ بِي. أُرَفِّعُهُ لأَنَّهُ عَرَفَ اسْمِي.

15 يَدْعُونِي فَأَسْتَجِيبُ لَهُ، أُرَافِقُهُ فِي الضِّيقِ، أُنْقِذُهُ وَأُكْرِمُهُ

16 أُطِيلُ عُمْرَهُ، وَأُرِيهِ خَلاَصِي.


I hope it came out ok!

16 September, 2007  
Blogger Roberto Iza said...

Kindest regards

16 September, 2007  
Anonymous Lynn said...

The media made us terrorists...

Mama, trust me that that is not the case. This is what the media think of Iraqis and do for Iraqis.

http://www.cnn.com/2007/US/09/16/youssif.spiderman/index.html?iref=mpstoryview

17 September, 2007  
Blogger field of dreams said...

Lynn, thanks for the link - I've been wondering what's happening with this child and his family!

Mama, the US people don't see YOU as terrorists.

There are those who think the US is the terrorists.

And there are those who read the blogs and the news, and know the murderers and terrorists are the militias and al Qaeda (and those who play with al Qaeda).

I have to admit that the level of violence against innocents has been shocking and terrifying, especially when the militias and al Qaeda do it in the name of "Islam". When that's all people know of Islam (that the terrorists use it to justify murder and evil), then it repels them from Islam.

Fortunately, there are people like you in the ME who blog, who allow others to see that Islam has nothing to do with what the terrorists do.

And you also let the world know that you are just like us - the same hopes and dreams, the same worries.

Most of us have children (I have 3, too!), and we all want them to grow up in a peaceful world, we all want them to be happy, and to succeed.

Thanks for your posts in your blog. Your blogs and others have given me a much better understanding of the Iraqi people, and it's been my honor to get to know you.

17 September, 2007  
Anonymous Lynn said...

And Mama, this is how American people are. If they thought badly of Iraqis do you think this would have happened?

http://www.cnn.com/2007/LIVING/wayoflife/09/18/youssif.beach/index.html

18 September, 2007  
Anonymous Lynn said...

http://www.cnn.com/2007/LIVING/wayoflife/09/18/youssif.beach/index.html

That other link might not be good enough.

18 September, 2007  
Anonymous steen said...

Hello mama, I have just finished reading all of your letters - the whole of your blog. Reading about your life makes me sad and tired - I think I'll go to bed early! But it is fascinating. Thank you for writing. One thing I am sure of: you are a good mother. Good night.

21 September, 2007  
Blogger Gudrun said...

Dear Denist Mom of Sunshine-

I forwarded your email to Tom who is also a denist here in Western New York. Our area here is like Mosul in comparing it to Baghdad- our area is like that to New York City which is in the same state but here in Wesern New York, most people are less educated than New York City and much more conservative.

Tom, the denstist who might write to you goes to South America during the winter to fix the teeth of poor local people there. Maybe he will tell you more about that.

All I know is about Fuji 9 a type of dental material whi8ch you can use without electricity - just hand tools.

I was suprised that you had dentists coming from Baghdad, I heard that most dentists have fled the area and that it is a problem, people cannot get their teeth fixed.

Best to you and thank you for your blog. I am still looking for someone to send a package to- leaning toward just sending it to Mosul post office- any suggestion?

23 September, 2007  
Blogger John said...

Dear Sunshine's Mom,
I'm praying for you and your family!

24 September, 2007  
Blogger Kel said...

I feel strange calling you mama, so I will just call you Sunshines Mother.

I have been reading Sunshines's posts and am up to July 2005 when she mentions you started a blog.

I have to say that you are truly a blessed woman for having Sunshine in your life. After reading just part of her blog I have learned so much. Many of us outside of Iraq are wrapped up in our day to day lives so much that our eyes are closed to the terrible things that happen so often where you live. I think we, ignorantly, think that everyone lives basically the same life we live in the US. Sunshine has opened my eyes to some of your daily hardships. I so much wish I could do something to fix the problems, something to ease the pain of your family.

You are blessed as I said before, and I am sure that you know this, but maybe not so much. You see your family day by day and are in a great tribulation. I am seeing from the outside looking in, and I see in Sunshine and in you great strength, compassion and determination. As of today I will pray for your family, that God would grant safety, wisdom and special blessings.

I hope to spend many more hours reading the rest of Sunshine's blog and begin reading yours (more than just your latest post).

God bless.

27 September, 2007  

Post a Comment

<< Home