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I am a 37 years old mom ,I am a mother of 3 children. I am a Dentist. I try to make every thing perfect. The life I have, the difficulties I face make me anxious.. I like to have a social life; I cannot resist my feeling of being lonely, but I don’t have good social life, & I am lonely.

Saturday, April 05, 2008


This is Raffi's sister letter, to you ..
Raffi is the friend we lost ,and I referred to him by "v" in my previous post.

Mama .

"I am an university student in the collage of pharmacy, a daughter of a small and highly educated family, the youngest sister of one single brother and a kind married sister, we live in a city named “ Mosul” in Iraq, in a simple house among kind neighbors ..Being the youngest, my family deal with me in a special manner, and I love them in an incredible manner, specially my brother, we were more than sister and brother, we were close friends, each of us was ready to sacrifice his soul for the other, he was so kind guy, funny, lovely, so faithful, fair, ambitious, had many aspirations also he didn’t hurt anyone even by a word.He was a graduate of computer science collage, of Baghdad university, he changed his job many times due to security circumstances, and he was unable to find a job suitable with his experiences, at last he was working in a shop of so kind people, he loved and respected them a lot, his work place was dangerous but he had to work, to live and arrange his future.As all Iraqis, he was always worry about the worsening situation which was life threatening and danger exists everywhere.On 18/3/2008, I woke up early to go to collage, unlike everyday, I left home without seeing and joking with him, because I was in a hurry.. during his job that day, a car-bomb exploded in his work place area and a metallic splint penetrated his clear and kind heart directly… by this way, I simply lost my only brother who was everything in my life, and till this moment I don’t know why or what was his guilt to die in this young age !When I knew about his death, I didn’t believe, until I saw him in the woody tomb, he was so white, sleeping as angel, also was smiling to me … we kissed him for the last time, and knew he went to heaven, because he was faithful, fair, kind person, also he died as a martyr ..My parents became so weak, simply because they lost oldest and only son who was to held the family name, was to make his own family, was helping my daddy in this life, and was everything for all of us.Sure I was sad too, and I found myself in a hard stance, I didn’t know what to do!! Although all of our neighbors, and friends helped us but it was hard for us . I cried till my tears finished, I became so sorry on all members of my family too, I was very worry about their health, then I started to think logically and found that I am lucky to have a brother in heaven, flying with angels, near our GOD as all innocents people in this world, also I am lucky to be surrounded by true friends, postgraduates, and undergraduates, kind Dr.s who teach me, and helpful people .. also I found that I’ve to be strong to be able to carry my family’s responsibilities, encourage them and fill his place .. not to lose them anymore, I know it is too much for a twenty one years old female, but I’ve no choice, I love my brother a lot, so I am ready to bear anything for him, specially when I know he is in a place where only rare people can join.Since I love him a lot, I decided to write these words as a message to him, telling him that I always wished the best for him and I am ready to do anything I can to tell the world about a person who was a diamond for us and is a candle who will keep to light up my life for ever, giving me hope for future, to make my dreams true, for myself, my family, and for my country , also his souvenirs will live with me every moment in my life and every time I look at the sky and stars (as we always used to do).I want my brother’s story be a simple and direct message to the world, to have attention about those innocent Iraqis who die everyday without guilt and their spirits be stolen suddenly in such way..I ask everyone who reads my words, just to close his eyes for seconds.. feel me .. and imagine the hard life in which Iraqis are living in .. if you do, help us to object this situation in my country, because no one except god has right to take our spirits from us, because it is not fair.. also I ask you to pray for him to make his soul comfort, and his guilt to be forgiven and be happy by hearing your prayers

Yours’ ,

The loyal sister,

Rita Jan Thomas Poushijian. "


Anonymous Anonymous said...

Im so sorry Rita.I prayed and praying for your brother. I feel a deep pain to see others lose their dearest ones and innocents are killed because of some terrorists and idiot actions, we are losing big gems everyday. may god`s mercy be upon your brother`s soul and guard you and your family. Im sure your letter will be heard and I`ll do my best to do so.

06 April, 2008  
Anonymous Wayne said...

Dearest Mama,

I am so very sorry for all the terrible murders that are happening in your country. I wish there was something I could do to stop it all.

I cannot understand why the terrorists keep killing innocent people and thinking they will be martors.

I pray to God and ask him to protect all innocent Iraqi people every day.

Thank you for keeping us informed.

06 April, 2008  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Raffi seems like the kind of person everyone wants for a friend. It is always the innocent who suffer the worst of war.

I never knew Raffi, but I miss him. The world is darker without his light shining.

Thank you for sharing Raffi's memory with the people of the world. His participation in this life will live on through the inspiration his memory ignites in others.

06 April, 2008  
Blogger Mister Ghost said...

Hello Mama,
I hope Rita is doing better.

When I read her letter, I thought of the Christopher Cross song, "Think Of Laura." It has beautiful lyrics about a friend of Cross, who died much too young...

Every once in a while I'd see her smile. And she'd turn my day around
A girl with those eyes. Could stare through the lies. And see what your heart was saying.

Think of Laura but laugh don't cry.
I know she'd want it that way.
When you think of Laura laugh, don't cry. I know she'd want it that way

A friend of a friend.
A friend to the end.
That's the kind of girl she was.
Taken away so young.
Taken away without a warning.

06 April, 2008  
Blogger dancewater said...

Thank you for sharing your love for your brother - and that love will live long beyond the grave.

06 April, 2008  
Blogger BOOKISH said...

I'm speechless.I don't know what to say.
I know my sorry won't make her or you feel any better but I'm so sorry.
May Allah bless his soul and help his family.

14 April, 2008  
Anonymous zindi said...

I'm sorry for Rita's lost too. I hope she is recovering from the sadness of losing a lovely family member. I pray for her and her brother, hoping we all find peace, no matter on earth or in heaven.

17 May, 2008  
Blogger Rita's cousin said...

Rita my sweet cousin,
Your brother is missed by all of us dearly. I know I never met him but something tells me he knows me very well. He is watching all of us and guiding us every day. I pray that God will bring peace to your country so that we can one day meet. Your brother lives in you. Your new niece will know who her uncle was. He lives on.
I love you and just know that Raffi is safe now. He hurts no more. He is our angel.
Rita I am thinking and praying about you and your family (my family) every day. I hope you can feel it.
I love you sweetie,
Carol Cotterly (Der Torossian)
from USA
your Mokour's daughter

13 August, 2008  

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