talk about my life as a young mother hoping to do the best for her children in spite of the life difficulies.As a Dentist I want to share you my occupational ticklers...

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Location: mosul, Iraq

I am a 37 years old mom ,I am a mother of 3 children. I am a Dentist. I try to make every thing perfect. The life I have, the difficulties I face make me anxious.. I like to have a social life; I cannot resist my feeling of being lonely, but I don’t have good social life, & I am lonely.

Saturday, March 01, 2008

I got my tears back.....

I used to have my tears easily flow even in happy circumstances, as when a bride enter the reception, or when I see a new born baby among his mom’s arms or sleeping, on meeting my parents after along time parting, even when I talk to them on the phone .but on leaving them tears can’t be controlled.

But since along time I can’t cry even in the most sad circumstances, I feel like my chest is about to explode ,I even asked my doctor but he did not give an explanation, I desperately feel like I want to cry for hours……
Yesterday I talked with sunshine about things bother me so badly, and I cried and talked to her for about two hours ,she is exceptionally wise and really good even better than my psychiatrist , I felt relieved and slept well at night .I hope that I got my tears back.


Anonymous Anonymous said...

dear Mama,
sometimes we need to cry or shout just to relieve the exhaust in the chest, ive experienced that also talking to someone do too and thats what im doing im talking to my friend M,sometimes he talks to me.for you,its geat to find smart sunshine by your side, she is a gem between your hands.im sure she can do what the doctor couldnt so keen on discussing your feelings with her.

01 March, 2008  
Blogger Ripama said...


Today I wrote to Sunshine about 'every man being the architech of his fortunes'. You are blessed to have a daughter such as her.

This year I'll be 60 years old and I'm impressed by Sunshine's wisdom. Seldom I meet people my age with even a smidgen of wisdom.

She gives you credit for being very intelligent, but even intelligent people need the wisdom of others for guidance because intelligence doesn't equate to perfect.

Never be ashamed, or afraid, to ask for help...and, KEEP your tears.

01 March, 2008  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I hope you get your smile back, too :)

I keep praying for you and your family, for all of you to smile again.

Stay strong, as you've been all this time.


01 March, 2008  
Blogger Average American said...

Mama: The stressful life you and all Iraqis are having to live in is undoubtably the reason for the lack of tears. You are so fortunate to have such a remarkable daughter, and she also is so fortunate to have you. I certainly hope that this terrible, crazy war will be over soon!! May God bless you and your whole family and all Iraqis.
Joe from New Hampshire

01 March, 2008  
Blogger John said...

Dear Mama,
Sunshine is one in a million! I am so sorry that things are so very hard for you in Mosul. I hope for you, in the short term, that you will be able to cry. In the long term, I hope that you will have many more reasons to smile.
Best wishes and a prayer

03 March, 2008  
Blogger cat said...

You know, one of the best types of getting rid of depression or anxiety or fear or anything is to talk. Just to talk to someone, and have that someone listen and understand. I know from reading Sunny's blog that she is just that type of person; she listens, understands, helps, guides, and loves. I pray that you and your family will be able to have fun together, and to laugh at anything you wish without a care in the world. love and hugs,

03 March, 2008  
Blogger Fille-de-Etoile said...

That is sad that you're not able to cry. Crying is a good to release pressure. I hope you will be able to cry. Also don't be afraid to laugh and feel joy when something good happens. It is so neat that you have your daughter to lean to. But I hope you find a young mom like you to go to. I'm worried that Sunshine may feel overwhelmed because she is still young and still trying to get educated. I pray that there is another young mom in your neighborhood you can turn to. It is important to have a good friend at your stage of life. You know, have other mothers with young children who you can share and enjoy motherhood and being a woman and a wife. Have a nice day.

14 March, 2008  
Anonymous Roy said...

Living in a war zone as you do is very stressful. After awhile you just kind of become numb to many emotions.You did the right thing by talking to someone like Sunshine. You are both very lucky to have each other. Someday it will get better.

17 March, 2008  
Blogger Michelle said...

You are a wonderful mother and the pain you are dealing with is enormous.

But, mother to mother.......

Sunshine needs her father to understand. Read her post. She is more fearful of losing her father than anything else. They don't communicate. Our job as parents (meaning mother AND father) is not just to protect our children, but to prepare them for the world.

Madam, I think you are the bravest woman I have ever met, but I have to ask you to please...put aside your own fears. Our lives as parents.....it is but a time. Our children will shape the future. Sunshine is one of those children that will shape the future.

She is a brilliant, intuitive child. Please do not let her future be shaped by stigmas. She needs her father. Her father needs to look past the stigmas and speak to her....not because she is female, not because she needs reassuring, but because she NEEDS him to be honest with her. Just like you were honest with her.

I don't want to create problems with your family, or negate your culture, I merely want your daughter to feel unafraid in her family, while in the midst of the rest of her world going crazy.

I do not know if this is appropriate, but Golda Meir once wrote,“We will have peace with the Arabs when they love their children more than they hate us”

This might be a horrible to you as a Muslim, but as a parent, how true is it?

When will it be time that we put our children first and strive for peace? And where dose that peace start?

Quite frankly, as a parent with children who are about to enter the world, there is no religion worth following that kills children.

19 March, 2008  
Anonymous Anonymous said...


When i read your post, i suddenly feel what you feel..i actually have been feeling it that way. I want to have my tears back too. I just happened to read your blog and i'm truly moved. May God bless you and your country.

Just call me, Angel

27 April, 2008  

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