talk about my life as a young mother hoping to do the best for her children in spite of the life difficulies.As a Dentist I want to share you my occupational ticklers...

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I am a 37 years old mom ,I am a mother of 3 children. I am a Dentist. I try to make every thing perfect. The life I have, the difficulties I face make me anxious.. I like to have a social life; I cannot resist my feeling of being lonely, but I don’t have good social life, & I am lonely.

Friday, October 05, 2007

Not in the mood ..

Recently I started to feel so depressed ,I finally found my psychiatrist ,I did not see him since the USA invasion, he changed my medications and added more , in the first week I felt so drowsy ,I could hardly stay awake ,or concentrate. now I feel a little bit better.
I some times wish I can stay alone near sea board ,or river bend ,or in a green field ,I miss the view of peaceful city. I only see damaged buildings, sad worried faces ,and mines implanted in the streets instead of roses and flowers, all I see is militaries in the residential areas instead of children playing in their gardens… all I hear is sad stories ,explosions, gun fires, and bad news…
I feel like I need to stay in a quiet place alone to clear my mind……I feel like I have no energy, so tired even after I sleep, I wake up so lazy, I have so many things to do, but I have no liveliness nor mood.


Anonymous Kel said...


I think you all need a vacation. Perhaps near the ocean, away from any destruction and fighting. You would smell the salty ocean breeze, feel it blowing thru your hair. You would only hear the waves crashing into the beach, seagull birds call each other, and your children playing. And all you would see would be sand and ocean waves rolling in.

Maybe you could just visualize those images in your mind while your going to sleep (provided you dont hear gunfire, etc).

Take care Sunshines Mom. Many of us are thinking of you and praying for you and your family.

- Kelly

05 October, 2007  
Anonymous steen said...

Sunshine's mam

I'm sad for you.

Is that all I can say?
Live for your gorgeous children.
So sorry.

06 October, 2007  
Blogger jAyvIan said...

Hi Mama. I'm a Malaysian. This is the 2nd time I'm viewing your blog due to my heavy burden of college hw.I'm enrolling in the Cambridge A-level programme in Malaysia.^^
Well, yea, after reading all ur posts, I really find it hard to accept and understand how and why are there such horrible things happening in the other part of the world. Apparently, we from the South East Asia r facing similiar probs too, mainly in Myanmar. I hope u r aware that the Myanmar junta govt has been killing monks, many of them who went on the street to protest. Over in Iraq, we get saddening but sometimes heart warming news from u. I guess I'ld never understand how u n ur family feels at my age of 17. However, I really wanna convey my warmest regards to ur family and u. It's a ture bliss that ur family r safe and sound despite the bombings.
I think besides keep on prayin and praying and hope for the best, there's nothing we can we do. Hopefully those who hav the stupid idea to start war can finally awake 1 day and see how disastrous its effect it is to the humanitarian world.

Good luck to u Mama. PLease stay strong for the sake of ur family and yourself. I pray that Iraq can make it through this challenge.

The Chinese would say "jia you" when they want a person to keep on their effort in doing something or keep holding on. So.. "jia you"!!


06 October, 2007  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I know it would be hard to leave everything but I wish there were a way that you could leave Iraq and go somewhere safe. You and your family have so many good things in your life that if you were living in a safe place you could be happy and prosperous. I know it's hard to leave your home and belongings but safety has to come first. If only you could leave. Ishalla.

Debbie A

06 October, 2007  
Anonymous Jason said...

It's good that you see your psychiatrist. I take medications for anxiety.

Living in such an insecure and scary enviornment would make anyone feel as you do.

Is there any way for you to leave Iraq?

07 October, 2007  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I also take medication for depression and I agree that taking it is good.

I now check yours and your daughter Sunshine's blog every day hoping to see a post so that I know you are still safe. It's been 3 days since one of you two have posted. Are you ok today? I worry about you and your family. Please post today.

I will continue to pray for you and your family every day.

Debbie A

08 October, 2007  
Blogger Sheila said...

Dear Mama,
I can't begin to understand the difficulties that you face everyday. I do understand what it's like to be lonely and to suffer with anxiety. I know you miss your parents and the life you once had in Bagdad and I don't blame you. My Mother lives with me and she is my strength, my blessing.
I ache for you and your family. To live with such danger surrounding you day in and day out must be so difficult. To have to turn away people in pain must also be heart wrenching. I feel for you so deeply. I wish for you peace in your heart as well as your country. May the Almighty above bless and keep you and your family in his loving arms.
Hugs,kisses and love,

10 October, 2007  
Blogger John said...

Dear Mammy -- I believe in you -- I'm praying for you and your family -- I agree with Kelly, I hope you can take a vacation at least in your mind and preferably in reality.

11 October, 2007  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

sorry for thst.
I hope u find happiness at the end.
despite all of the sadness we also
have freinds and lovers to take care of them and to live for them,
see u.........

19 October, 2007  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

There are many days when I get out of bed and feeling depressed about my day. Then I read a blog from someone like yourself or Sunshine's blog and and only then do I truly know what a bad day can be. I truly hope that someday soon you will be ably to set by the sea or in that field.

31 October, 2007  

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