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I am a 37 years old mom ,I am a mother of 3 children. I am a Dentist. I try to make every thing perfect. The life I have, the difficulties I face make me anxious.. I like to have a social life; I cannot resist my feeling of being lonely, but I don’t have good social life, & I am lonely.

Tuesday, September 27, 2005

The truth....

Dear friends
When America decided to liberate Iraq from the x- regime , I believed that a life full of pleasure is coming. I thought every one will have a job , we will have rights & respect in our country , we will be able to live free & to put forward a normal , happy life, with good future to our children, with no fear &no pain .I thought the Iraqis will promptly start rebuilding their country & will try so hard to contest to convoy the world development .I thought we will built beautiful country , & could be a model for the others ( like the Japanese when they stood up again after the war ).I thought we will live in a rich , well developed country .I thought we will develop the health& education institutions .I thought we will live in good environment free of pollution .I dreamed we can travel & see the world which we are part of it , I thought we will list fun among our priorities. I thought no more tension & no more tears will roll down my eyes , unless tears of happiness. I believed I will be optimism & cheerful again as I used to be …….
I was either tricked ,or may be I was dreaming ………
Then I woke up to see a life full of tears, pain ,fear ,tension ,more pollution ,more backwardness, bad expectations with no hope………
Mama…………

29 Comments:

Anonymous Anonymous said...

What can I say? That is what I believed too. Where did it all go wrong? Will it all come right in the end? Maybe they'll run out of silly mistaken men to strap their bombs to. Take care. I feel for you.
starliz

27 September, 2005  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

In time, your dream of what your country can be like CAN come to be. But it takes time... these things cannot happen overnight...even in one year or two. First Iraq must have a good, new, stable government elected by the people and then start to rebuild and to build up the country where there was nothing before. The Iraqi people must want to work together for this to happen. The Japanese people spent many years and much effort rebuilding their country. Part of the problem, it seems to us outside your country, is that the Iraqi people are not united yet in their efforts to help rid the country of the bad people who want to make it harder for the country to recover; such as those who kill innocent citizens who are in line to apply for jobs, people going shopping an so on. I hope you will not give in to despair and will keep working towards a better future for yourself and your family.

27 September, 2005  
Blogger pebblepie said...

I thought all those things too...

:^(

My prayers are with you and for this all to get better.

Trying to keep a hopeful heart.

Pebble

27 September, 2005  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Mama: I am so sorry that you must go through all this terrible action. I hope that it will improve soon. I agree with maddog. I was in Japan soon after the end of the war and was surprised at the courtesy of the Japanese people. Courteous to each other and to me. I was much larger than any of them so it was obvious that I was a foreigner but that made no difference to them. I could go anywhere either day or night without worrying about my safety. They would invite me into their homes for meals and tea. When they had parties they would invite me to go along. I soon learned to love them and they became like family to me. Today, 50 years later, I still have some of them living and they care for me as if I was part of their family. I hope that some day soon all Iraqi people will begin to work to help each other rather than trying to kill innocent children and adults. My prayers are with you and all Iraqi people of your caliber.

27 September, 2005  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

In japan, the emperor told his people that he was not a god, and that they should surrender and cooperate with the americans.

In Iraq, the insurgency is thriving due to islam, and islam only. Debunk islam and the caliphate/jihad fantasy these monsters are living in, and just like the emperor saying to his japanese subjects that he is not a god, people will wake up and rebuild, instead of fighting to the death.

The insurgents are being good muslims - they are defending islam and muslims from the west and our values like democracy, gender equality, and individual freedom.

27 September, 2005  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Japan is an island and extremely small. Japan isn't as mixed culturaly also. U.S.A. wasn't as involved in previos Japanese affairs. U.S.A. didn't at the time have an invested interest in Japan's resources.

I don't credit the will of the Japanese people as the difference.

28 September, 2005  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Islam isn't the issue. It's the raising population of illiterate people. A literate population can and would be able to read the Quran and would know Islam through allah and not power hungry salvages instead.

28 September, 2005  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

the Japanese had just been obliterated by two atomic bombs. so far, nuclear bombs have not been used as a deterrent to the insurgency. well, unless you count depleted uranium weapons, but thats beside the point. i am not saying USA should drop nukes on Iraq, i want to point out to Maddog that the comparison is like apples to oranges.

28 September, 2005  
Blogger kgb said...

mama,
I wanted to keep this short but there's so much to say about this situation what is going on between your country, our country, and the the terrorist insurgents...

It's been nice reading about you and your family. I love that you've got a career and potential to excel in whatever you and your husband may wish for your family and hope you achieve it all.
I'll apologize for any problems or tragedies done by American troops and other international troops, but I hope you understand that Americans are raised, in general, by a great code of ethics. We battled through our own civil war and the fight was to remove slavery and ensure a democratic system. It was worth the tremendous fight and there are many differences between our country's fight and yours; I do know this. The outside interference by Syria and others allowing the traffic of insurgents through their borders is a major factor in the chaos. We're trying to help you get to a point where your own police and security can protect your freedom. I don't want to criticize too much because I'm not there myself so don't think that I believe all Iraqis are like this...it sickens me to think that there are mothers who are very glad when one of their children give their lives as a "suicide bomber"? The term "God willing" always is quoted in the media. I just read where a mother had just lost her only son and told a reporter that "she wished she had more to give". Is that possible that a culture exists to offer their own children to die like this? Lately it was a woman bomber too? Tell me that these are a small small percentage of people there? I don't see too many people in the streets of Bagdhad or anywhere else demanding that these insurgents leave your country. Is this out of fear or is it not true? Is there a large active group of civilians demanding an end to the insurgency?

I don't get the sense of hate in your blog at all. For this I thank you and hope you can remain a friend. It worries me that the middles east has a very hateful opinion of us. I hope this is media hysteria and not the real feelings. If there have been stories of Americans acting like animals in your country I hope it's not true there are many soldiers who are young men and were just kids a short while ago and they must be very scared and pressured to get the insurgents at all costs. But if there are bad American troops there and some stories are true, let me apologize and tell you that this is not how America is. Help us stop the insurgents. Freedom will come if you trust us and help us. Please believe this.

Be careful,
D Wurdman
America

29 September, 2005  
Blogger Mama said...

The insurgency in my country dose not represent Muslims or the Islam values . Islam came before more than 1426 &never provoke to kill innocent people in the name of JEHAD,it’s a new campaign against Islam . Moslems were never against the west values as democracy, & individual freedoms as those are the real values of Islam ,the difference is we have different social ethics. real Muslims don’t try to dictate it on others, through killing or expiation.
Insurgency in my country differ in their representations, I would like to call them all as terrorists , because they all KILL innocent people in cool blood, they could be from the X –regime (represent as I believe the majority of the terrorists ), criminals profiteering the lack of security & the chaos .Others came from out side the country Some of them came to fight the Americans here , others came to worsen the situation in Iraq for some political reasons I personally can't make divination about their intentions.
I didn't wish to discuss any political issues in my blog as I believe we are victims of the politicians & they use us to reach their intents .
It hurts very much to generalize that Muslims are bad or are terrorists.
Real Muslims should be peaceful people & against violence.
Mama……

29 September, 2005  
Blogger programmer craig said...

Hi Mama-

Thank you for the post, and for teh followup comment you wrote. Even as sad as most of your posts are, it's your blog (and Sunshines) that really make things in Iraq seem personal for me. I've become very discouraged with the direction some of the Iraqi blogs I used to read have gone, they all seem to be promoting an agenda of one kind or another. Lots of bias, bigotry and hate, and very little truth. I don't see any of that in the posts you write, so I value them very highly. Even when you don't say things I want to hear.

Skizm: do you really think somebody who uses the symbol for "anarchy" as their profile picture should be commenting on the situation in Iraq? I'd think an anarchist would be pretty well pleased with the current state of affairs in Iraq. Just a thought!

29 September, 2005  
Blogger waldschrat said...

mama - Don't give up hope, good people all over the world wish nothing but good for Iraq and I can only believe that ultimately things will get better. In the meantime, we must guard hope like the flame of a candle in the wind.

29 September, 2005  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Mama,

It is heartbreaking to hear how difficult life has become in Iraq (it makes me want to cry). I know that things were bad under Saddam, but this sounds even worse. Most of the American people would not have gone along with this war if we had thought it would turn out like this for the Iraqi people.

I know that American soldiers wanted to help Iraqis, too. It sounds like some of our soldiers have behaved badly over there, and as someone else said...most are still young...probably scared...not knowing whether they will survive to see their families again.

I do believe that some day, things will be better because Iraqis are obviously wonderful people, and will find a way to make Iraq a wonderful place to live again.

I wonder if your family should go to Jordan or UAE until things are safer for your children? I'm sure that there is nothing more important to you than the safety of your (adorable!) children.

Do you think that the insurgents would stop the violence if coalition forces left the country? Or would things get even worse, do you think?

Judy

29 September, 2005  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Mama
In your post you said,
"I didn't wish to discuss any political issues in my blog as I believe we are victims of the politicians & they use us to reach their intents."
Now that is the plain and simply truth. If you look closely at every conflict in human history you will uncover the same simple truth. There has always been some madman at the center of this madness that believes he has the right, and usually the God given right, to inflict his distorted belief system on innocent people.
I read your blog everyday as a compass for what is happening in your country. You speak the truth of a mother, an intelligent human being and a person who loves her country.
I am not an American but I am thankful they are with you in this fight to rid your country of these madmen. I could only imagine what Iraq would be like if they were not their at this time. The American people are good, caring, courageous people that will give you the shirt off their back and their children’s lives in order for your country to have the opportunity to make your own decisions.

Stay safe, stay strong
c from canada

29 September, 2005  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Mama,

I opposed the war for a number of reasons. One was that I thought that the Arab Muslim population of any predominately Muslim country includes a substantial part that will react with growing resentment to an occupation by a foreign infidel army because (1) many Muslims are unwilling that a Muslim majority should be ruled by an infidel minority and (2) many Arabs are proud of Arab nationalism and independence and not about to return to anything resembling foreign colonialism. I believed that this idea would apply to the Arab population of Iraq. I also thought that foreign Muslims, and particularly foreign Arab Muslims, would go to Iraq to fight the US, as others had gone to Afghanistan to fight the Soviet Union. I feared that Muslim and Arab outrage would be even greater because (1) Iraq is an Arab country (2) it is an IMPORTANT Arab country (3) it is in the center of the Middle East (4) communications to it, such as roads, are more advanced than those to Afghanistan and (5) Baghdad was the center of the Caliphate at the highest point of Islamic power and Arab civilization.

I also doubted the readiness of Arab nations for civil liberties and democracies. An American organization called Freedom House rates the nations of the world as "Free," "Partly Free," or "Unfree." Before the Iraq War, it did not rate a single Arab nation as "Free." It rated only two Moslem nations as "Free:" Mali and Senegal.

I don't claim that I had any particular insight. Exactly the opposite: the potential for trouble was obvious and foreseeable. Worse, this potential was not foreseen or prepared for by the US and the Coalition.

If you were impressed by the conventional military power of the US, you were right to be. If you were impressed by the wisdom and organizing power of the US, that too was a reasonable assumption, but it has not turned out well. And the readiness of Iraq for civil liberties and democracy? Under Saddam's regime, how could you really know? I guess that the only way to find out was to try.

I favor the Coalition project in Iraq after the end of conventional military operations: to reconstruct Iraq, both physically and in terms of its political culture and institutions.

This project has turned into a desperate and bloody struggle. A majority of the Iraqi people favor this project and have made it their own. To that extent, the struggle is moving toward victory. On the other hand, a substantial minority are opposed and a significant part of those are resisting by force of arms and many of them are willing to commit almost inconceivable crimes. This majority and minority in Iraq are not spread evenly through the land and people of Iraq. They are unevenly distributed among different ethnic groups--Arab and Kurd--and among different religious denominations--Sunni and Shia. The result is that there is a significant region in Iraq where the insurgency has achieved either success or a deadlock against the armed forces of the "world's only superpower." (Regretably.) That region includes much of the "Sunni triangle." There is also an intermediate zone that includes Baghdad and Mosul.

I find it hard to see how the enemies of the government can win, can win ALL of Iraq. On the other hand, I think the government, and those Iraqis who support it, face a formidable task to reduce and eliminate the region of enmity. Perhaps the reduction can take place through negotiations and a gradual shift from war to politics, from the battlefield to the ballot box. I hope so, and there are some hopeful signs, but not enough yet for confidence. In the meantime, I fear for civilians in the midst of this mess. Civilians like you and your family.


Michael in Framingham

29 September, 2005  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

an anarchist is someone who recognizes the inherent chaos within so-called society. its not all about fire and death. i am willing to admit that people behave differently when police are not around-run red lights, steal office supplies, do not claim their tips, forge their spouse's signature, read other's mail, lie on tax forms, sell drugs, download music, bootleg movies...stop living in denial. when the barriers of society break down, you see citizen's true nature come out. i am not happy with the situation USA has caused in Iraq at all. i am simply realistic about it.
sorry, Mama for the political nature of this post. i wanted to reply to Craig and he does not have a blog i can access to post onto.

30 September, 2005  
Blogger programmer craig said...

Google define:anarchist

1) Anarchists advocate the overthrow of organized government because they believe it interferes with individual liberty. They sometimes see cooperatives and voluntary association of individuals and groups as the best way to organize society. Anarchists called the protest meeting at Haymarket Square in Chicago in 1886.

2) Anarchism is a generic term describing various political philosophies and social movements that advocate the elimination of hierarchy and imposed authority, leading to a society characterised by the ability of each actor to have a say in outcomes proportionate to the degree they are affected by them. These philosophies use anarchy to mean a society based on voluntary cooperation of free individuals.

Using either definition, Skizm, it still seems to me that the current situation in Iraq is exactly what you want, no?

Maybe you might wanna think about changing your political philosophy. But that's your call.

30 September, 2005  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Folks, please keep politics out of mama's site.

30 September, 2005  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

a story I came across...


It's about the US presence in the Philippines in the early 1900's

If you will indulge me for a few moments, I will relate a short story from my youth. My grandfather (a sincere Muslim by the way), was always an ardent supporter of the USA which I never really understood in those years. By the time I reached the University I was enthralled by the left and believed every word of the socialists (and in some cases absolute communists) who populated most of the academic chairs in our university. I was an avid participant in anti-USA rallies and was an advocate for the closing of USA military bases in my country and the cutting of any ties with our former colonizers.

I loved my grandfather regardless of his seemingly archaic attitudes toward the USA. I remember on one visit home from the university walking with him in the hills of our island and talking about politics as we often did. "How can you support the evil USA when they did so many atrocities against our people and tried for so long to force their beliefs on us?" I asked him in my serious university language.

He told me about how the USA colonial government had forced our Moro chiefs to end slavery and this was why they had fought the Americans so fiercely. I replied that it was "because the Canos (Americans) were evil white colonizers and their soldiers were cowards who used their superior weapons to dominate us".

My grandfather only laughed as he often did at some of my university learned rhetoric and said, "You think we hated them because they fought us?" he laughed, "We admired them because they were willing to fight us in the field. The Spanish stayed in their forts and only shot at our children and women in villages with cannons from their ships. Those were the ones we hated. Moro people have always loved a fight and the Americans were willing to give battle where we could win honor."

I replied "But what right did they have to force us to end slavery? I don’t like the idea of slavery but it was our custom, it is allowed in the Qur’an, the Prophet, peace be with him, had his own slaves. It is not haram. The Canos had no right to force their beliefs on us even if there were some admirable ones? And, I read that our people didn’t treat slaves badly like in some other lands."

My grandfather put his hand on my shoulder to support his stiffened legs as he sat down under a group of coconut trees to rest and said, "But slavery is wrong. It doesn’t matter if the slaves are treated well or badly, one person has no right to own another. I learned that from the Americans"

"I agree that people have no right to own other people," I said as I sat down beside him to watch the treetops sway in the afternoon breeze on the valley below us, "but that is not the point. These were our customs and the Canos had no right to impose their beliefs on our people." With a little heat in my voice.

I immediately felt very bad at the tone I had used and to soften my comment I asked my grandfather, "But are the stories true, did we treat our slaves well, like we have always been told?"

My grandfather replied quietly something I had never known, "But Kadi, don't you understand...? We were the slaves."

God bless the United States.

01 October, 2005  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Affectionate Mama,

I am not Muslim but I am Christian so tonight I say a prayer for you and your wonderful and beautiful family to the Father:

The Song of Zechariah, Luke 1:78-79
In the tender compassion of our God, the dawn from heaven will break upon us, to shine on those who live in darkness, under the shadow of death, and to guide our feet into the way of peace.

And Also the 23rd Psalm:
The Lord is my Shepherd; I shall not want.
He maketh me to lie down in green pastures:
He leadeth me beside the still waters.
He restoreth my soul:
He leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for His name' sake.

Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,
I will fear no evil: For thou art with me;
Thy rod and thy staff, they comfort me.
Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies;
Thou annointest my head with oil; My cup runneth over.

Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life,
and I will dwell in the House of the Lord forever.


Even though you live in a place where terror and death is all around in the battle between good and evil, I pray to God that He will protect you and your beautiful family that those of us around the world have grown to know and to love.

01 October, 2005  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

The US couldnt care less about the Iraqi people. From the new born to the old the US doesnt care and never has done. The US is a plague on the world. I hope that youre people are able to throw the invaders off soon. There will be no peace as long as the US is there stealing your resources and murdering children.

The US has no intentions of helping rebuild what was destroyed. It also has no intentions of letting the Iraqi people do it either. The US is a nation hell bent on mudering anyone who stands in the way of them stealing your oil. The US installed Saddam, do you really think things will be different with the latest puppets they have installed ? Rise up, throw off the yankees. There will be no peace till the last yank is dead. Then you will be free to rebuild. Then you will be safe to walk down the streets. But not until then.

03 October, 2005  
Blogger Mama said...

for rg Thanks for your prayers ,may god accept the prayers.

04 October, 2005  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

The Us and other free people around the world care for you and all the good Iraqi people. We all want peace and happiness to replace the terrible sadness that you have been experiencing for far too long.

Anonymous above has no idea about our love for all our brothers and sisters. He/She seems to hate everyone who does care.

04 October, 2005  
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