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talk about my life as a young mother hoping to do the best for her children in spite of the life difficulies.As a Dentist I want to share you my occupational ticklers...

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I am a 37 years old mom ,I am a mother of 3 children. I am a Dentist. I try to make every thing perfect. The life I have, the difficulties I face make me anxious.. I like to have a social life; I cannot resist my feeling of being lonely, but I don’t have good social life, & I am lonely.

Monday, March 12, 2007

Sudden event...

Fear is the only feeling our kids experience now days under the new democracy, my house was badly damaged by exploded fuel tank close to my house, the suicidal attacked the nearby police station.
As a Muslim I thank Allah that we are unharmed ,and my children did not injured, that was a miracle, we were in the garden at that time, my 3 years old son wasn't out yet ,he was in the hallway, two wooden doors slapped him and many glass splints , he surely got terrified, and panicked but he wasn't even scratched. He is not like ordinary child ,he feel unsecured, he don't play in his room nor sleep in it ,because he don't want to stay alone, he keep following me in the house and refuse to stay alone in any room inside our own house even for few minutes. in the last two weeks four bombed cars exploded in our neighborhood .how can I make my children feel tenable , at least in my house? how can I, if I my self don't feel secured??..
At the time of explosion my little girl Miriam was alone in the laundry room in the back yard, where glass and the roof gypsum fell on her, with the most terrifying sound you can imagine .
at that time I experienced horror not just from the explosion, but I wanted to see everyone intact specially Miriam as she wasn't in front of my eyes.
I screamed ,ran and looked for her among the smoke, dust and debris..
After I checked out everyone , I started to examine my house ,my own paradise was unbelievably dirty ,the whole windows damaged and many glass darts were penetrating the walls and furniture. the doors were not only damaged but also split into two , the curtains pipes became arced , the fault ceiling felt down , incredibly the window type air-conditioner thrown out of it's place, everything was thrown here and there. dust and gunpowder as well as millions of glass splints is everywhere even inside our closets. that was unbelievable , we are ok!! ,no one was hurt, with shaking hands I did the most stupid thing ,(I think I had ever done), I wrote an sms to my parents who where in Dubai in a great family event , they went to my sister Rose , they were having lunch with my uncles who came from USA, Canada and Ajman after many years of exodus , I wrote to them" a car exploded near our house , the house is devastated, but we are unharmed". in such irresponsible words I simply ruined their great meeting at lunch and sure the few next days…god knows how awful I feel about sending that letter ,at that time the only thing that I wanted to do is to tell anyone that we were alive ,specially people who care, but without any thinking about the results.
of course they got panicked and upset , and they were far away , why scare made me so brainless and selfish?? .I don't know.
Then I started to enfold the blankets, and carpets and throw them out, it was really hard to start working with so much fear and pain ,I did not even know from where to start ,chaos was in all over the place. then sweeping and sweeping the glass, after 7 hours of very hard work we could only remove some of the rubbles ,we did not even had lunch, as dark started to fall down, we prepared a safe room to spend the night in together. my husband put some cartons on the windows and we all slept in the living room , my whole body was killing me ,we did not even had a bath, and slept so dusty . early in next day we brought workers ,over 20 workers worked all day long to repair the windows and other damages. In three days we almost finished the most important work.
Mama..

9 Comments:

Anonymous Anonymous said...

i wish things will get better in Iraq and you'll have a better life.

20 March, 2007  
Anonymous Wayne said...

Mama,

I am so sorry to hear about all the damage done to your home. Sunshine told us aboute it also. I am glad that no one was injured.

I continue to pray for your family and all innocent Iraqi people.

I was happy to hear that you did like the poem I sent to you a few posts ago.

20 March, 2007  
Blogger 3EERAQIMEDIC said...

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22 March, 2007  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Oh my goodness, Mama.....

What can I say besides I'm so very sorry? May your karma be blessed a thousand times over!

Have you considered leaving that place? The world is huge, life continues, your children are more important than Iraq. I would open my home to your family in a second. Many others would too. Do what's right for your children, Mama!

My god, I'm SO sorry for the destruction my country has brought into your lives. I'm so SORRY, Mama. I'm SO SORRY....

Your life, your childrens' lives, are more important than Iraq. May you make the right choice....

26 March, 2007  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

From Blog:
>> exploded fuel tank close to my house, the suicidal attacked the nearby police station.

From Comment:
>> My god, I'm SO sorry for the destruction my country has brought into your lives.

What can you do anonymous when the more reasonable and level-headed of your country men can't even get on the ballot and your forced to live with such wackoes Presidents as Amadenajad?

29 March, 2007  
Blogger CentFla said...

Mama,

All in America pray for you. Slowly we are begining to understand what horror the US has brought down on individuals like you and your family. I pray that you will once again find peace and that once and for all my country and your country will work together to spread peace.

31 March, 2007  
Blogger 2turk said...

The American/British oil barons plan to pilfer and steal Iraqi petroleum resources inorder to enrich themselves. A Jim Hightower animation addresses the issues.

http://tinyurl.com/3xgmah

01 April, 2007  
Blogger Heather-Anne said...

Mama,
I cannot even begin to imagine how you all cope day to day. We are sending you our love and prayers.

I also wanted to tell you that I read Sunshine's blog as well and you should be so proud of the smart, funny, and independent daughter you have raised. She will change the world one day!

Heather-Anne

01 April, 2007  
Blogger aminah said...

I feel so sorry for you and your family and will pray for you. You were not selfish at all for informing your relatives of your family's close encounter with death. Don't be hard on yourself. You are an incredibly tough and obviously a wonderful mama to your three children. I just happened upon your blog by chance and it filled my heart with sorrow and pain and I wished with all my might that the war would end and that you and your family could live the life inshallah you deserve. Noone deserves to live like this.

07 April, 2007  

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